Premonitions?

I haven't decided whether I believe in ESP/premonitions. I do know months before the deaths of people who are close to me, I often start having "death dreams".  In my family, every major event (wedding, death etc) was followed with a get-together at my grandma's.  My death dreams usually are in the setting of her home, with dishes of food set up on the table along with paper plates and the usual "easy clean up" items.  The most recent years, the dreams obviously have more deceased persons as featured persons, since my parents, both sets of grandparents, my sister, and other close relatives are deceased.  Before my sister died I started having dreams about grandma. At the time I thought I was just missing grandma who died in 2000.  But, the phone call came about my sister's sudden death. Weeks later, I remembered the "death dreams" and realized they stopped right after I heard about my sister.

Then I started dreaming again recently, about mom, my sister and grandma. Today I learned another close relative died. 

I once knew an old professor emeritus who I was close to emotionally.  I spoke to him on the phone one night and he sounded so very tired. Two nights later I had this strange dream that he called me on the phone (never in real life) and began saying "I'm sorry I had to leave".  As he spoke, his voice got lower and became very garbled, until I couldn't understand, then I couldn't hear him anymore. It felt so bad I immediately woke up; it was 4 a.m.  Within 24 hours I learned he had died that night, right around 4 a.m. 

I never feel I can talk to anyone about my death dreams. Sound too weird. Sound too sad.  No one knows what to say. No one knows whether ESP or premonitions are real. So instead of being open to the idea, they're more likely just to think I'm nuts.

Based on personal experience, I'd say ESP and premonitions *are* real.