The past year has been one of big changes.
First, I finally decided to listen to the people who've said I should write and am busy writing short articles. I'd really like to do a newspaper column on different subjects - we'll see if I can accomplish that goal. So I've been writing more and one thing I've learned: I don't always know the word I am searching for, and I don't always spell properly. I'll need to be extra careful to look for my mistakes.
Then, I've also still been missing my sister. Every day I think of her! Grieving doesn't get "better" but it does get "different." I wonder things about her... like what her last thoughts were (yes I know, depressing thoughts), or I wonder if she'd lived what would she have accomplished the past year? Like me, there were so many things she was working on and wanted to do.
The past year I've also realized how close I was to my sister and grandma. I don't have that same connection to the rest of my family, and they don't seem to need that kind of connection like I do.
2 comments:
I went through a smilar process when my wife passed away 5 years ago. I STILL grieve.
I like your journal. Before I retired (due to the baleful effects of MS) I wrote a weekly newspaper column. From what I've read here, you have a gift that SHOULD be developed. Keep up the good work!
I wanted to apologize to you. I never saw your post until today -- yeah, almost a year after you wrote -- I'm sorry! I kinda let the journal go ... had been sick, too much going on etc. But I decided to start posting again. So I hope you'll stop by again from time to time.
I'm sorry about the loss of your wife. Even though time passes, there is always grief. It springs up at really weird times.
Anyway, I just wanted to apologize to you and let you know I'll be posting again.
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