Even a "funk" sometimes gets worse

House of Cards

          Remember the story line on "The Brady Bunch" when the kids had a boy-girl contest to build a house of cards?  (I think it was to decide which kids would get to "spend" the green stamps they'd collected before, and were set to expire soon.)  Those kids held their breath, wrapped loose fabric of their clothes tight to their body, and did everything possible to NOT have their "house" fall down.

           Do you remember the first time you built a house of cards?  A house of cards starts with two and is multipled upward and outward, as long as no one breathes too hard, no hand shakes too much, no untoward event happens! 

           Unfortunately, home health care services in my State are like a house of cards.  One sigh, one wrong move, and even the breath of others can knock the whole house down in one second.   The disabled in my State are subject to the silliest rules.  The rule for the Home Care program is: you can have home help but only if you have your own "back-up" for care, and even though you are eligible for help, the company does not have to provide service OR make sure they have back-up for their employee!  However, many patients have no family, and few friends who want to be available to be back-up.  If you have no personal back-up, you cannot qualify for the service!  Isn't that a nice catch 22?!  Sick; need help; no family/friends; you would be eliminated for service!  Good logic, huh?

           Well I had a helper and we worked well together.  But, something (I'm not given the details) happened (but not here and not with me), and I get a call from the company that the employee will NOT be here anymore!  I got a 1-hour notice!  No personal back-up can re-arrange their life to get to me in an hour.  Plus, it is August; most families go on vacation.  So I complain (loudly).  After only 24 hours, the company says they "cannot find anyone!" and tell me I am being terminated from services too!  For what?   I didn't do anything wrong! 

             So in the blink of an eye, I lost my best helper.  She'd been here 2 years and missed only 1 day.  She never took a vacation.  She never was late.  She had a good heart and helped me as much as she could.  But, now I've lost her because of the stupidity of an agency! 

            Maybe my previous "funk" was some more of my ESP?  (I wish I didn't "pick up" vibes.)   There was no warning, just my funk. 

             Obviously, I'm stressed out and upset.  And... just tired of the stupidity...