Best Loved Days

   The dates between the 10th and the end of the month are my best-loved days, without a doubt.  Between the 10th & the last week, I feel almost carefree, and definitely relieved.  These  have to be the days I experience less stress than those first 10 days!

  There is NOTHING more stressful for me than bill-paying.  I was never terrific in math (I got good grades but Math was not my favorite subject), but I feel almost paralysed by numbers, especially ones with the (dreaded) $ sign in front of them.   Bills seem almost to be enemies: There's never enough money to go around when you're disabled, and bill-paying brings a good bit of anxiety.  But worse, I think I have gotten worse at math as I get older.  That seems backwards though!

      The majority of people probably write on average 7 checks a month for recurring monthly expenses.  (Am I off on this figure?  Has anyone done a study on the average number of bills owed?)  I base 7 on: (1) rent or home payment, (2) car payment (3) insurance (4) gas utility or other utility (5) electric or other utility (6) water/sewage and (7) cable or satellite.  Of course, people may have credit cards or other bills.  So maybe the "average" is between 7 and 12 bills a month??  So what's that, 84 to 144 instances to practice Math, right?   Over a lifetime of 70 years.... shoot, I'll need a calculator to figure out what 84 or 144 instances over 70 years would equal.... so let's forget that.  But, my point is, it seems that every year, I should get BETTER in math, not WORSE!  LOL! 

       Oh!  the distress "bill-paying day" causes!  Stomach muscles tighten, bands of varying degrees of headache comes.  I've wondered lately if I've had dyslexia all along; maybe figures don't add up right because I'm dyslexic?  I'm not dyslexic on words/letters; is there such a thing as Numbers Dyslexia??  Well, it's a theory, and at least with a theory I have a possible explanation, and a possible explanation makes me feel better.  LOL!  What other reason could there be to getting 4 different totals on 4 different calculators?  Ack!

        So from now until the end of the month I'm sane again.  (Shhhhh, that was NOT a question or open to debate!)  Now, I can concentrate again on writing & researching, and not get intimidated by dates (cos they don't have that $ in front!).   Freedom!  Well, until the next first comes.....